Tony Robbins gave us a 10 days challenge to increase our energy. There are a few simple lifestyle changes, mainly food, to make. He said if we were to do so and feel the energy, we will never want to go back.

So today is my first day alkalizing. Needless to wonder, I must have a very acidic blood inside due to my poor diet before this. One of the hardest things are to cut coffee and sugar. since I’ve been relying on coffee and also indulging in a lot of sweet stuff, my day wasn’t a very good one. Headaches and low energy. In addition, it is that time of the month for me so my hormones made me even weaker. After naps and naps, hubby and I finally forced ourselves to hangout in Bondi Beach.

In Bondi Beach, I jogged and did the recommended vital breathing. Instantly, I felt better. There’s something about the ocean. It always calms me. On our way home, we dropped by a store and bought some herbal and fruit teas to replace coffee.

I quite like the weather in Sydney. We purposely went the longer way and took the ferry back to my cousin’s house. The wind was awesome. The view of Sydney and its harbour is just breathtaking.

The guy who will change hubby and my life.

This weekend was a pretty eventful one. On top of covering night shifts for my shop, I’ve attended a 3 days seminar (starting from yesterday). The seminar was conducted by Robert G Allen and Patric Chan and it’s called “Multiple Streams of Income in a Flash”. Tomorrow is the last day. With so many information given to me in the last two days, I’m mentally exhausted. Now, I am like a zombie working in my shop. Anyway, I thought that blogging will keep my mind away from my tiredness.

What have I learned from the seminar and about myself?

Let me start by telling what I’ve learned from the seminar. Two things, really. The first thing was nothing new to me. It’s Internet Marketing. Patric Chan is one of the well-known Internet Marketer from Penang. He showed us some tricks and tweaks we can all use to start up Internet Marketing. Of course, there are more to it. The other thing I learned was from Robert G Allen. I learned about Infopreneuring. When it comes to this subject, I have an inkling of what it really is but I didn’t really know how powerful it can be until today. Wow! I now know the secrets behind some of the most successful people in this world.

One of my mentors once told me it’s not how many seminars you go to, it’s how much results you get from each of them. Do I think this seminar is good for me? Yeah. Of course. Although i am not that interested in Internet Marketing nor am I ready to be an Infopreneur, I know very soon in the future I’ll be using what I’ve learned this weekend to enhance my wealth. For now, I just have a lot of challenges (or what my friend would call it as “projects”) to take care of and this leads me to what I’ve learned about myself last two days…

The most important thing I realised is that I’m currently in a position where my self-esteem is at all time low. I guess this isn’t the lowest I’ve been but I definitely got to start picking myself up. I can’t tell you why I feel this way. I know why I do, however. And I realised this self-defeated position has affected my health in such a way that I’m not as energetic as I used to it. Me, few years back, was so fit and energetic. Today, it is as though somebody took the life or some people called it as enthusiasm, out of me. Nevertheless, i will not quit. i will keep going. As the analogy Robert used, I got to continue climbing the mountain and reach the top.

That’s all from now. Time to rest…

Wedding is all about shopping shopping shopping. Honestly speaking, I’m getting very tired of all this. I love shopping but having a budget all the time sucks. I feel like not caring too much about all these wedding stuffs. Also, I felt a little disappointed with something that happened today. So disappointed it kind of killed my excitement and gave me a taste of bitterness I’ve never had. If I rule the world, I will say there’s no need for a wedding. Marriage is between two person only, ie the commitment between two person. So, what’s up with spending a whole lot of money for ONE day and then suffer a while after the wedding. What is the point? Seriously, think about it. If I get to choose, I would spend that money for travelling and build a more comfortable house because that would last. Well, the reality is that this is not possible and we still have to succumb to the society’s expectation. So….

*calming down* ohmmmmm… *calming down* ohmmmmm ohmmmmm… Break my pattern. NOW.

The lesson from this is that I MUST GET RICH! If we are rich, this will no longer be a challenge. I MUST BE RICH. NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

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Actually, today wasn’t all bad. This morning was pretty good. I went all the way to KL to attend Pei San’s ROM. Went around looking at some wedding art and craft supplies in KL before the event. Bumped into my ex-colleagues. Haven’t seen them for a looooong time. That was kind of nice.

Pei San’s ROM was funny and nice. She looked absolutely stunning. I’m so happy for her. *Sob *Sob.

Today had been a very challenging day with a lot of good news. My supervisor staff took one week holiday so I had to cover for her in the mornings. I woke up very early to start up my restaurant. Yesterday, a major water pipe bursted and disrupted the whole street’s water supply. SYABAS was working all night to dig up the broken pipe and replaced it. When I reach my shop this morning, they were still fixing it. The pipe was right in front of my shop. All the work caused my shop’s pavement to become very dirty/muddy. I had to lead my staff in improvising with what we can. SYABAS finished their work around 930am and we quickly put everything back in order. Before we’re even done, the town council’s crew were at my door step doing their twice a year rounds to inspect on our cleanliness. At the same time, my supplier called and rushed me to fax some things over! Wow….seriously. It was a wonderful morning!

On Sunday, I’ve closed a sales that I was fighting for for two months! I can’t believe I did it! These customers was very very difficult. I had so much challenge talking to both parties and it affected me so much I was about to give up. It kind of killed some confidence I had. I persisted, however, and never did I lose my temper (in front of them at least). In the end, my customers actually complimented me. He said I was hardworking, smart in doing my homework and he’ll refer me to his friends. This made my day. I didn’t expect that at all. After this meeting, I met up with a few friends and my friend asked me to consider joining him with his new business. While I am not sure if I will be doing it, it hit me once again that I’ve become more and more of a sales oriented person. I love it! I love selling. I cannot go back to my computer IT job. Really. It all started with the temporary job I had with FAA last year. It forced me to put on my selling hat and I’ve never taken it off since.

Everyday from now onwards, I’m going to do something to improve myself, my life and etc. Things have been really good. I love it! I want to keep the momentum going. This afternoon, I’ve received two calls which made me very very happy!

Things are going to change again. Yippie.

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Before I forget, the subject of this post was chosen because I wanted to write something about Rapunzel. After my shift today, he brought me to watch Rapunzel in our favorite cinema. The movie was really fun and funny. I love it. The voice of Rapunzel sounded familiar and I spent at least half an hour trying to figure out who it was. Finally, it hit me. Mandy Moore! and I was right! Such a feel good movie. I’ve always like princess stories. My favorite was Beauty and the Beast. It brings back a lot of childhood memories as my late mum brought me to watch this cartoon in a real cinema for the first time. Also, I watched a live musical version of it in MGM theme park in Disney World. Nothing quite like it. Rapunzel is good as well. Bravo Disney!

2010 was a very challenging year but it also brought a lot of personal growth. While trying to connect the dots here, I’m seeing more and more of what the Universe is trying to reveal to me. So far, I’m learning to let the bygones be the bygones. Admit my mistakes, learn from it and move on.

2010 has been a pretty challenging year. There were happy and unhappy moments. This was the year I received a surprise marriage proposal. As I’ve made some new resolutions even before the new year is here, this is also a good time to do my thank you wishes.

I want to thank my parents for giving me my life and loving me unconditionally. I also would like to thank my family and relatives for their support. I have a pretty big family and it’s great to have so many people giving me unconditional love all the way.

To my fiancé, thank you for always being there for me. I’m proud of your progress and have lots of faith in you. Can’t wait to have our own cozy home.

Next, I’d like to thank my friends for their almost unconditional love.
To my fookies:
Grace – my sister for 16 years. Very happy to see you’ve found your true self, love and career.
Kay Mi – we’ve both seen each other at our best and worst. Thanks for setting me straight so many times. Good luck in living your dreams.
Terine – I’ve grew to appreciate you a lot. I’m proud of your career success and hope that you are proud of yourself too.
May Lam – always has been my sister who I can rely on and still am.
Filo – you showed me how the shittiest thing can happen in life and yet we have to press on and be positive.

Other really wonderful friends, in no particular order:
Heng – thanks for always sharing, even though sometimes too much. Haha. Just kidding.
Lowie & Koon Lip – have only known Lowie for a while but feels like I’ve known her for very long. Happy couple!
Pei San – feels great to have a younger sister like her. Such a strong woman and I really miss her being around.
Pooi Lum – itchy brother who never fail to cheer me up.

Any other friends who I didn’t mention here – you’ve made a difference in my life.

To my mentors, thank you!

I love all of you. Hugs.

That was the last of it and I broke it.

I’ve been very emotional lately. Attended T Harv Eker seminar in Singapore and stayed longer to have a good holiday. Universal Studio and Singapore Zoo was fun. T Harv Eker was pretty good too. I have learned almost all the lessons two years ago in another seminar so this was like a refreshment course. Of course, I was in a rat race wanting to get out 2 years ago. This time, I’m learning all this as a business person. I reflected on my life and my thought was … Whoah! What a load of crap! What am I doing? Why are things the way it is?

I’ve had it! Enough is enough. This is the time for me to say no when I need to say no. Whatever that works, I’ll retain. Whatever that doesn’t, good bye! This applies to people too. My time is precious and I prefer to concentrate on people who mean a lot to me….those who would never hurt me. Time is too precious.

Met up with a high school friend this afternoon at my shop for lunch. Surprised to find out about the things she had been through. Happy to know she’s a really strong person. I guess everyone has their own life complexities.

I survived a food poisoning drama. After a series of vomiting and diarrhea, I am still alive. Phiew!

The night after my Penang trip, I started throwing up non-stop. Any water I drank, I threw them all up. Then, there were mild diarrhea too. Went to see a doctor yesterday morning and he prescribed some medications for me. However, they didn’t work very well and I ended up puking a few more times. I spent the whole day sleeping yesterday to gain back my health. XCool came and accompany me but I was sleeping most of the time.

This morning, I woke up feeling better and normal again. This is the worst food poisoning drama I’ve ever experienced. I wonder which food caused this?

You think you had it going. You think everything is good. Well, it is. But then suddenly negative thoughts start to flood your mind. If that’s not bad enough, they start to affect your life. Argh! It’s really Law of Attraction at work. Negative attracts negative.

How to maintain positive thoughts? I don’t know what I want. If everything is fine then why am I still so upset? Why did it happen in the first place? Do I need all this? I’m beginning to think that I don’t. Nobody said it’s a must. Who dictates that, anyway? I’m happy both ways. Need a holiday. Too much clutter in my mind! 怎么了？

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Spent whole afternoon consolidating receipts for my shop. Mountains and mountains of receipts. 1/3 done, 2/3 more to go.

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Universe, please clear my mind of doubts and give me some guidance. Thank you, Universe!