I started doing LOA again. This time, I have some additional tools at hand. The two subliminal tapes I bought. Hubby and I have been listening to them interchangeably for almost everyday. It the last thing I listen to before I go to sleep most of the time. Does it work? I don’t know. Let me tell you a story and see what you think?

Since the wedding, Hubby and I have been putting some charges pilling in our credit cards. Yes. I know it is a bad thing. We just don’t have that much liquid cash at the moment and didn’t want to sell our properties. The amount is not huge. After my meeting with my friend last weekend, I started doing LOA again. I kept visualizing hubby and my credit card statements as zero every night, morning and all other time. I picture it when I’m showering. I picture it when I’m driving. It has always been my practice to clear off my bills before CNY. I wanted so badly to clear them. I remember what my friend told me. Don’t tell yourself you want to clear your “debts”. Instead, think of yourself as having money surplus. So, that was what I did in addition to the big 0 on my credit card bill visualization.

Today, hubby and I was driving all the way to Kuantan to pick up her sister. Just when we reached her university in Kuantan and hubby went to help her in loading her bags, I received a phone call from my dad. It was a super good news. Our investment account distributed dividends unexpectedly and this time it is 4 times of what we usually get! I can’t express how happy and grateful I am. Hahahahahahaha. Hahahahaha. Sorry. I just have to laugh. The money came in just in time. I’ve cleared off our credit cards immediately and we have some extra. I don’t know if I can link this incident with the subliminal CD. Gonna have to need more evidence. Lol. Nevertheless, I’m going to buy one more subliminal CD. This time, I’ll buy the “ultra prosperity” CD.

Thank you, Universe!

Lately, I have been reading a lot of spiritual books and audiotapes. I have this desire to know more. I want to know the things beyond scientific explanations. I listen to tapes about Buddha and I am reading a book about Jesus. My intention is not to find a religion. I just wanted to know more.

There’s this really good book I’m halfway reading that talks about the phenomenon called “coincidences” and “luck”. When two incidents happen at the same at a certain time, could it be just a coincidence? Or could there be forces beyond what we can perceive/smell/taste/see/feel that are responsible for it? The author in this book is educating us about the universal force that encompass all of us. If you think about it, we are really nothing but a set of atoms. Just like how animations are made out of slides flickering so fast it’s transparent to our naked eyes, could there be more to this world that is way beyond what parts of our body are capable to sense? Very mind boggling but we all know it could be true. We are after all just a type of species in this world and we see the world as much as we’re capable of only.

As I’m reading this book, I take moments to think back about times when coincidences happened. Or the incidents that happened by “luck” which changed my life. A good example would be that really blessed moment when I meet my hubby. It happened by such a slim chance. The mere thought of a slight twist in the incident would have prevented me from knowing my soulmate makes me jitter.

Interesting subject. I think things really happen for a reason. It’s darn true for me. The happy and unhappy incidents in my past shaped who I am today. The people who agonized and hurt me, my mum’s death, my overseas experience, my changing of jobs, my business affair, the people I met, etc etc etc. Just so many meaningful coincidence in the past. Some I didn’t heed and now that I’m more aware of it, I am wondering how my life would have been if I took the signs. Oh well, no point looking back with regrets. I look forward to all the future coincidences.

Today, I cooked something new. Curry chickpeas! I’ve never cooked it before but I’ve cooked tonnes of curry chicken in the past. This time, I added a lot more spices than before. Surprisingly, it was delicious. Just the sight of hubby scooping up every last drop of the curry makes me feel very happy and satisfied. Cheap thrill. Tsk tsk. We’ve been eating in a lot and cooking. It’s just easier to maintain healthier lifestyle this way although it’s a bit time consuming. I forgot how nice it is to cook and it can be very therapeutic.

7+km cable car ride to Kuranda.

At one of the hill top

A rainbow next to big Barron Falls (view from cable car)

There’s just something about rainbows. It makes you feel happy and grateful for mother nature’s work of art.

Two days ago, I met an online friend all the way from Penang. He’s a team leader in some network marketing company and doing very well. As we were talking, it’s obvious to know that I’m a person who is lost and he’s one person who has figured everything out. He looks very happy and contented with his life. It was fun to finally meet him and I must say that I admire his confidence. The next morning, he sent me a poem by Kent M. Keith.

Anyway

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.
People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

Hmmmm…….I must say I don’t quite enjoy the slightly pessimistic tone of the poem but I guess maybe I’m not to that level to understand yet.

Hubby and I have been watching relationship videos from Tony Robbins. It’s wonderful how he helped to turn around married couples who are going to split up. I’ve learnt so much and also asked myself how I can improve my marriage. Honestly speaking, this whole getting married thing isn’t really one smooth process. We’ve been fighting about many things before we went to Australia. It was very frustrating and I had a lot of doubts in my head.

Now, I have some wonderful tips in my hand on how to maintain a passionate relationship. I understand why I’ve been feeling so miserable. My sense of responsibility is so strong. From young, my parents turned to me when they needed someone responsible in my house. They reinforce this behavior by verbally rewarding me. When I started working, I began to put on a masculine mask in the society so that people won’t think I’m weak. I used to not accept it when people said I’m not capable because I’m a woman. These two qualities I’ve held on to has put off the feminism in me. When I bring them into my relationship, I felt so miserable. Feminism is my true identity but I’m going against it everyday for survival. In fact, I am quite a motherly person. No joking. I know now that I need to tone down my masculinity when I’m with him and embrace my feminism. I trust that my hubby will take care of me and he has assured me. I must be the luckiest person on earth.

I actually enjoy wedding planning. There’s just so much to look forward to. I was very picky and choosy earlier, wanting to take care of all the minor details. I wanted it to be perfect. Now, I feel more relaxed because I know at the end of the day, it’s not about the wedding. It’s about the marriage. I can’t wait to enjoy my wedding and excited that we both have a wonderful life to experience together.

Outside Sydney Fish Market

Lovely day out in the sea with many yatchs

Mr No 1 in my life, who made all things possible

Caught up with work and friends…. still am. Yesterday, one friend asked me for Aussie trip photos and I told her I’m too lazy to post. She said that for a blogger, I don’t have a lot of photos on my blog. I told her that I’m not a celebrity blogger and I don’t plan on being one. Later, another friend asked me to put teaser images in my blog so he could have a sneak preview before viewing the photos from me in person. Much later, my fookies told me to upload on fb and make it private. Argh.

Well, I’ve listened to all of them. Uploaded albums in fb but only some have access. And here’s my teaser photo….

You have a problem?

Okay okay… After some thoughts, I’ll post photos but spread them out a little. Bit by bit to remind myself of the commitments I’ve made in this trip. Here’s another two more for today.

We’re flying back to Sydney before transiting into another plane back to Malaysia. Our Cairns-Sydney flight has been brought forward half a day! Due to this, we’ve booked a hotel in Sydney for a day stay. Won’t be able to blog until I get home, I suppose. Till then, take care folks!

This morning, we woke up very early and went to the Reef Fleet Terminal. We boarded the Quicksilver SilverSwift boat and headed out to Flynn Reef of Great Barrier Reef. We spent the day snorkeling at 3 different reef sites. It was amazing! There were many types of fishes. Some glowy, some colorful, some as big as 2/3 of me. There were clams, turtle, beautiful corals, sea cucumbers, jelly fishes and many more! What a lovely day. One of the big fishes touched me on my face. That felt great!

After the last snorkel site, the boat crew served refreshments. I stared at the chocolate cake for a long time before deciding to eat it. Oh man! It’s only day 7! Alkaline again with lemon water.

This morning, we woke up early and headed out for Kuranda. We took the Skyrail (7km+ cable car ride) up to Kuranda. It was beautiful. Wow! Although I felt a little fearful about sitting in a cable car, I must admit it was a pretty good ride. There was a 250m waterfall called Barron Fall halfway. In the morning, there was a rainbow near that huge waterfall. Amazing! When we reach Kuranda, we went shopping, eating and also enjoying the cool weather. Then, we went for a jungle walk. At 2pm, we took the Kuranda scenic train down back to Cairns. It was a pretty awesome ride too. The scenery is just great!

I think I have to do a strict alkaline diet. Am going to buy PH strips when I get back to Malaysia.

Today, we rented a car and drove up the Captain Cook Highway along the coast line up to Port Douglas. The view was superbly wonderful. Our road is on a mountain. When you look down, it’s all water, nothing but ocean water stretching from far right to left. The waves moves towards the shore and hits the rocks. Lovely! Midway, we stopped at Hartley’s Crocodile Farm and spent half day in the park. I never knew crocodiles can be such fun! There were shows where the park rangers actually stood very close to the crocodile and the crocodile went “Snap”! The sound they made were as though someone took two big wooden boards and banged them together. Very loud! We also went on a boat ride and a ranger fed the crocodile right in front of us (about two feet away). I touched a young 1 year old crocodile!!! Their skin felt like rubber and if you didn’t tell me it’s a crocodile, I would have thought it as a rubber toy. We saw some koalas too but they are such boring animals. All they ever do is just eat and sleep….very much like panda bears.

Today, we cheated a little. Couldn’t resist the chocolate and bought a bar of Lindt dark chocolate 85%. Alkalizing now with a big cup of lemon water. =.= I guess it’s easier to do the diet when you’re not on vacation. Haha.

I am just so full of energy now I feel like I can take on the world (and I know it in my heart that I can). I’ve attended so many seminars but none of the mentors are as sincere as him. He’s truly a man of giving with a big heart. Very funny too. I respect him to the fullest and he is a blessing to me. Here’s why.

When I started this blog (the previous blogspot which I accidentally deleted the entries), I was in a place where I had some inspirations from another mentor and I wanted change so badly in my life. So badly. Few days later, I accompanied my dad to a shopping mall and there was a MPH book sale in the concourse. While waiting for my dad, I strolled down the trays of books and BAM! Tony’s book “Unlimited Power” was calling for me. I’m not exaggerating this. It was literally beaming from the corner of my eyes because the spotlights were coincidentally shining on it. I picked it up, found it interesting, it was RM9 and bought it without thinking further.

The book was a little confusing but I found the lessons very refreshing. So many self-help authors wrote about life and behavior but nobody quite explained them like he does. Weeks later, I bought “Awaken The Giant Within”, which was easier to digest. Although reading his books helped in many ways, but I still didn’t quite got it into my system.

As I’ve mentioned in my earlier post, hubby bought tickets and trips to Tony’s seminar for my Christmas pressie. I was excited max!

In UPW this weekend, Tony and his team took us thru a lot of intense NLP sessions and life mastery stuff. On the first day itself, we walked on fire. I’ve experienced some very very intense emotions. So intense in a few of them that I broke down many times. I didn’t hold back anything and just let myself go. Tears flowing, bawling, body tightened, head pounding and screaming my lungs out. It’s uncontrollable.

At the end of yesterday’s session, all the questions I’ve had for a year plus have been answered. I’ve blogged about it all the time. What is my life purpose? Why are we here? What do I have so many things and still miserable? How to be free from a nagging pain?

I’ve got all my answers!!! Yayyyyy!!! And…. I’ve broken free from my misery. I feel a few tonnes of weight lifted from my shoulder. Now, I am excited to live my life!
I feel very blessed and utmost gratuity to my hubby for this wonderful opportunity.

We’re thinking of taking it up to the next level to attend Tony’s “Date with Destiny” seminars. Lets see how it goes

Life will never be the same. Life is changing… The truth will set me free.