I’ve been busy working and building foundation for a new thing I’m on. Apologize for not writing.
Hubby and I just got back from pre-viewing our wedding invitation cards before giving the shop a green light to print. It’s lovely!!! I’m so happy it turn out so right. I absolutely love it and it goes so well with my theme. Better than I expected considering the price is so affordable. I’ve chose the correct vendor. Maybe I will load a picture of it after my wedding. Gotta wait another two more weeks or so to get the cards printed and add some personal DIY touch. Yes.. people. When you receive my wedding card, do bear in mind that I put my sweat, heart and soul to complete the DIY part.
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I love this song. I heart Adam Levine (and Maroon 5)!!!
After hours of choosing the perfect gown, with help from my dear sis and cousin sister, I finally have all that I wanted. Although I really like the evening gown I chose, my makeup artist commented that it’s too “plain” for a wedding. She said I should choose something more “fashionable”. I trust her because she has taste. Called up the bridal house and made another appointment to find something better. Argh. Why do I need to wear an evening gown on my wedding day?
Now that I have my wedding gowns, I’m shopping around for good shoes and jewelries. First stop, shoes. A person who knows me well will know that I’m a big sucker for anything shiny. I always go for shiny jewelries, shoes, watches, handphone casings, etc, etc. So people…. buy me shiny things, you can never go wrong with that. lol.
In an ideal world, these shoes would have been the perfect ones.
by Christian Louboutin
(sure looks a lot like a pair of glass shoes, doesn’t it?)
by Manolo Blahnik
(this would really look good with my wedding gown)
Haha. I’ve been shopping around and there are a few potential nice pairs around. Maybe I should get a colored pair of shoes like the image below (taken from TheKnot.com). But then again, maybe not. Maybe I’ll get something silver-ish, cream-ish, or pinkish white. I just don’t like shoes that are completely white.
Woman: “Hello…hey how are you? How’s your family…. ok ah? blah blah blah…oohhh…. where are you staying now?….blah blah blah…ohh… I see I see. So good to hear from you now. Anyway, just wanted to invite you to my wedding. It’s on _ _ at _ _. Do you think you and your family can make it? Can you let me know if you could come and how many pax? great. thanks. by the way, are you still working in the same place? blah blah blah…..blah blah blah blah” at least 5 minutes later (sometimes 15 minutes later). “Ok. I’ll be contacting you to pass you the invitation card when it’s ready k? Take care now. Bye bye.
Man: “Hello. Hey. How are you? I’m fine thanks. I want to book your calendar for Nov 5th for my wedding. It’s at _ _ . Bring your family k? I’ll put you in for 2 pax. Send you the invitation when ready. Thanks. Take care. Bye!” Whole conversation only about 2 minutes (sometimes less)
Not another night of weird dream…! This time, it was about people from my past. Yesterday, it was about the activities I was going to have. Two nights ago, it was about my dad and his situation. What is wrong with me? As far as all these dreams are concern, it has nothing to do with reality. Could my mind be craving for egoic thoughts or my “pain-body” craving to be fed? Is my mind at it again? Is blogging about this feeding my ego? Do you understand what I’m talking…..?
Anyway, gotta go to shop now. Business has been really good. I’m very proud of my staff. They are doing such a good job running the place by themselves. I hardly need to be there anymore. Thank you, Universe!
Row, row, row your boat,
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.
Really? Are we awake or asleep? Was this all just a dream?
Went to the dentist today because one of my old fillings chipped off two days ago. While sitting in the dreadful chair, I could feel myself trembling inside. I expected it to be painful. When the doctor put some drilling tool into my mouth, suddenly, I just remembered something I learnt lately and I surrendered. I just stared blankly at the ceiling of the white room and tried to stop my mind from contributing all the fear it has been possessing me since yesterday. I don’t know how many seconds it was before my mind came back to haunt me again.
The whole dental experience wasn’t that bad after all. There were moments when it was uncomfortable but definitely nothing as excruciating as what was played in my mind for the last 24 hours or so. This lesson couldn’t have come in a more appropriate time. Just as I was learning to control my mind, some forces beyond me just pulled all things together to give me this very crucial lesson. I’m thankful.
Two mornings ago, I woke up and murmured something extraordinary. I don’t know if it’s was something I dreamt about or what. Sadly, I didn’t finished the sentence so the message was still unrevealed. I can’t tell you what it was but if I were to find out what the full message was, I will let you know.
It got me thinking, however. Gosh. I need to stop thinking too much. Our mind, if not used properly, can be our greatest enemy. Within a week, I’ve read both of Eckhart Tolle’s books – Power of Now and A New Earth. I started with Power of Now and it took me two and half days to finish it. The concept totally just blew me away. As soon as I was done, I couldn’t resist reading his next book. A New Earth explains even further and with more practical methods for us to use. All I ever needed was already within me. What a revelation! Now… to find out if it’s all true.
I won’t go into the contents of the books. I suggest that you read it.
“The past gives you an identity and the future holds the promise of salvation, of fulfillment in whatever form. Both are illusions.” – Eckhart Tolle
Wow… what a powerful statement! If you really give this statement your attention, you’ll find that it’s very true, isn’t it? Everything is about our ego. Even this blog is ego-related for me (and this is perhaps why I don’t find a need to write lately anymore … sorry folks). Our egoic mind is deceiving.
As I’ve mentioned in my earlier posts, I’m searching for spiritual answers. All books that I’ve read constantly reminded me of this thing called “consciousness” and how one can find it. Could it be I’m reading too much of books from spiritual teachers of the same sort? With so much time on my hand, I should probably branch out from new age and dive more into the older type of spiritual scriptures. Perhaps for comparison purposes? Anthony Robbins taught me to not take other people’s words blindly and to choose what I want to believe.
Now, I am practising “being aware”, “watching the thinker”, “having stillness” and etc from his books. One thing is for sure, I really do find it peaceful to be in silence. Just 2 days of doing all the things above had already made me feel like a different person with interesting experiences. I won’t share with you what the new experiences are because I may be wrong. I will continue to observe and lets see how it goes.
Looks like the only thing I feel like blogging lately is about my wedding. It’s not that I am spending a lot of time preparing, I just don’t want to blog about anything else. Haha.
My so-called DIY wedding project is not so much DIY anymore. I don’t know why but I feel so lucky as to have found suppliers that can give me the same thing I wanted to DIY within my budget. It’s unbelievable. I managed to find someone to do my personalized wedding favor even cheaper than my DIY budget for the same thing. Yippie! As mentioned before, I will reveal all vendors I’ve used for my wedding project.
Wedding favor – checked; Wine – checked; Grooms men attire – checked; next -> songs for wedding band to play, calling guests, invitation cards, bridesmaids dresses, in-law clothes, choose my wedding gown, home decos.
Why does it feel like there’s still a lot to do? Due to certain unfortunate death in family, my friend planned her wedding within a week’s time and she pulled it off ok. I told her there are pros and cons. The cons obviously is that her wedding ain’t that organized and she cannot choose good restaurants/hotels. The pros are that guests would understand, guests would pay more for ang pow and she saved a lot of money omitting many things like invitation cards, wedding favors, wedding deco etc etc.
I’ve put in quite some effort to find the things I really want. I’m a bit of a perfectionist, you see. Really hope everything turns out like I’ve planned.
It has been a while since I last update my blog. Yesterday, my friend Lowie asked me about it. She lives all the way in Singapore and I guess it’s hard for us to keep in touch often. Our blogs are a good way to update each other what we’re up to. Haha. Sorry. I told her I’m just too lazy and also prefer to keep more things private these days.
Realizing that my wedding is less than 5 months away, I’ve been picking up wedding planning again. Due to budget constraints and that I love a lot of pretty stuffs, I’m going to DIY a few things so that I can afford some better things. Of course, this is with help from my staff and family. These are the while clouds. Wedding DIY Project Kick Off!
I’m currently in some mode I don’t know how to explain. I am still finding answers to a lot of things. I am reading even more books and listening to more audio tapes now. I try to meditate as often as possible, ie when I have some quiet time. I just want to find out the spiritual part of life. Ever since I started, it seems like there are a few great miracles and coincidences in my life albeit small. These are still white clouds.
I’m trying to find new businesses to have. This time, I will start small. I hope it’ll turn out right. These are still white clouds.
A call from a property agent few days again bearing a good news for another property we invested. Yay! These are definitely white clouds.
Yesterday, hubby and I went for our pre-wedding photo shoot. It was just a tiring day and I hope it’s all worth it. I actually enjoyed it even though my skin is burning from too much exposure to sun. They didn’t allow me to use sunscreen to preserve the dewy feel of my skin. My photographer was incredibly funny. Anyway, thank goodness that it’s over now. Can’t wait to view the photos 2 weeks later.
I slept before 12 last night and woke up to my phone vibrating non stop with every birthday wishes from all over the place. Thank you everyone!
Gotta wait another two more weeks or so to get the cards printed and add some personal DIY touch. Yes.. people. When you receive my wedding card, do bear in mind that I put my sweat, heart and soul to complete the DIY part.
