Day 7 of our strict diet and we’re getting used to it. Today, we tried frying rice with just vege, liquid amino and rock salt. I was unsure if this adventurous trial will be too bland because there’s no egg/meat/soy sauce. Turned out to be tasty.

Hubby and I have been watching relationship videos from Tony Robbins. It’s wonderful how he helped to turn around married couples who are going to split up. I’ve learnt so much and also asked myself how I can improve my marriage. Honestly speaking, this whole getting married thing isn’t really one smooth process. We’ve been fighting about many things before we went to Australia. It was very frustrating and I had a lot of doubts in my head.

Now, I have some wonderful tips in my hand on how to maintain a passionate relationship. I understand why I’ve been feeling so miserable. My sense of responsibility is so strong. From young, my parents turned to me when they needed someone responsible in my house. They reinforce this behavior by verbally rewarding me. When I started working, I began to put on a masculine mask in the society so that people won’t think I’m weak. I used to not accept it when people said I’m not capable because I’m a woman. These two qualities I’ve held on to has put off the feminism in me. When I bring them into my relationship, I felt so miserable. Feminism is my true identity but I’m going against it everyday for survival. In fact, I am quite a motherly person. No joking. I know now that I need to tone down my masculinity when I’m with him and embrace my feminism. I trust that my hubby will take care of me and he has assured me. I must be the luckiest person on earth.

I actually enjoy wedding planning. There’s just so much to look forward to. I was very picky and choosy earlier, wanting to take care of all the minor details. I wanted it to be perfect. Now, I feel more relaxed because I know at the end of the day, it’s not about the wedding. It’s about the marriage. I can’t wait to enjoy my wedding and excited that we both have a wonderful life to experience together.

Outside Sydney Fish Market

Lovely day out in the sea with many yatchs

Mr No 1 in my life, who made all things possible