a.k.a. hunches. It’s a sudden thought/feeling that warns you of something you can’t see. Have you ever wonder how can this happen?
I’m not too sure but I’ve experienced two incidents today. The first one saved me from trouble. I never had such strong hunch before. It was an inner voice telling me I MUST turn around and do this even though my body didn’t want to move. It’s really amazing. The second hunch of the day was a feeling that I’m about to receive a particular good news. This was a milder feeling.
I’m beginning to question a lot of things these days. I reread Napoleon Hill book and discussed a few things with my friend Sean in the past few days. Hmmm… How does a thought come about? Is there such thing as reading another person’s mind? What about hunches? Where does it come from? What are we? Really. What makes us different from a street lamp? Are we just a ‘thing’ in this Universe and does our brain/thoughts function like a on/off switch (perhaps a more sophisticated switch then an air-con remote control)? If not, then could there be a way to tweak our brains to be like one? Hmm….
I can’t find proper words to express what’s on my mind. It’s really a feeling. I want answers.
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Yesterday night, I asked my staff why he seemed so dreamy these days. He told me that he misses his family in Myanmar. He added that he cries whenever he thinks about them during bed time. I told him what I’ve learn from the movie “Eat, Pray, Love”. To him I said “Whenever you miss them, send them love and light…… and then drop it”.
I had such a wonderful evening today. I just got home from a date night. XCool took me out for a short dinner and a movie of my choice. He finds it boring and felt asleep. Pity him…he’s been working non-stop lately albeit for a good cause. Couldn’t be prouder for this significant growth in his career. I’ve been very busy too and it has been a long time since we’ve watched a movie. A few attempts we’ve made before didn’t happened because of last minute issues that popped up. So, I really appreciated him for suggesting a date night tonight and he didn’t play with his iPhone at all.
I think the movie is nice and meaningful. The director sure knows how to make scenes draggy though. I can relate very well to this movie but I won’t elaborate on how. I have a thing or two to learn from Elizabeth Gilbert, the author. Anyway, maybe I should read the book after I’m done with the current books.
Before I met XCool, I’ve always wanted to travel somewhere alone. I didn’t manage to make myself do it. The furthest I went was to check myself into a resort hotel very far from town and treat myself to a nice spa, good meal and lots of reading time by the park. Even so, it did wonders to me. I have so many things on my mind lately and I think I really need that vacation. I want to go somewhere alone for a few days and being the supportive person that he is, he gave me his blessings (I know I’m not the easiest girl to domesticate). Now, where should I go?
Went for a business meeting with XCool in the morning. After that, we went to The Curve to pick up something I’ve won from a small contest. We hung out in Starbucks for the remaining of the afternoon. He was doing his work so I took the opportunity to go…..shopping!!!
It has been a while since I had my retail therapy. I needed new shoes for the upcoming wedding season. i have so many weddings to attend in the next few months. I didn’t only buy one shoe but three shoes!!! Haha. Happy! Gotta love them shoes. I was very tempted to buy more. Everything look so good but I figured I’ll buy more when I make more sales. Now I have new shoes for every occasion. Wanted to get a new dress too but didn’t find anything suitable.
Since Sunday, something has been on my mind. My potential buyer told me he will get back to me on Monday. I am not a big fan of making sales follow up call. I was fidgeting thinking about how to go about it if the buyer doesn’t call. Then, I remembered what I’ve learnt from Abraham-Hicks. I wrote down on a paper to make a list of “Things for Universe to do”. One of the things I wrote was to have the buyer call me with positive news on the sale so that I can close the deal. On Monday, I waited but there wasn’t any call. I told Universe in my mind that I’ll give her another day to do her magic. My buyer called me this evening and he was motivated to close the sale.
My mind was screaming “Yahooooooo!”
As soon as I hung up the phone, I danced around XCool’s room. My third sale and the biggest one thus far. There are some conditions I need to iron out between the buyer and seller. They are both strong-headed person and I got lectured a little by the seller. Universe is giving me lessons on how to deal with all types of people. I will persevere. This sale is mine!
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This afternoon, XCool and I went to pay hotel banquet deposit for our wedding. I want to engage an external decor so the flowers the hotel had in their packages were of no use to us. I had been wishing and hoping for them to permit an exchange for other things we need. I wanted unlimited corkage and free LCD projector rental in exchange. After a quick and dirty calculation, that would save me at least RM2500 as I expect to have a lot of wine bottles that night. I added this into my list of “Things for Universe to do”. You know what happened? After we sat down with the banquet manager and I highlighted the point, she quickly told me she will upgrade my package to include unlimited corkage and free LCD projector rental. I was blinking excessively with happiness (don’t know if she saw it haha). I don’t even to make effort to negotiate with her. Then, I haven’t been very happy about them giving free flow of cordial and charge us for soft drinks. I prefer soft drinks to cordial. I mentioned that to her and she upgraded our package from cordial to soft drinks. Happy!!!!! I’m going to blow my guests away with an awesome wedding. Everything is falling into place like how I want them to be. Now… what theme should I go for?
I’ve read something about criticism and how it affects one’s behavior. I felt as though there was an invisible slap to my face when I realised that I fear criticisms. This is not a good thing because it prevents me to move forward or take risks. Although I would say that I’ve been a lot better, I still have lots of improvements to make. I must learn how to accept other people’s criticism but not let them affect me too much.
There are some things I’m trying to decipher. I’m a little confused… Big decisions need to be made. Universe, please guide me. I want to find my answers. Thank you, Universe!
This morning, I logged into my online banking wanting to pay my monthly car loan installment. To my delight, I have one more month left and I’m done with the loan. Yay! Then I went into a deeper thoughts…. it has been 5 years! It has been half a decade since I came back from USA.
Around this time, 5 years ago, I made a decision to come back to Malaysia for good. I was in the US for exactly 5 years too. I spent 2 1/2 years studying and the other 2 1/2 years working as a programmer analyst. Time really flies. People always asked me if I missed USA. The answer is Yes and No. YES – I missed the easy lifestyle in USA but NO – I’ve never once missed my living conditions in that 5 years. Life was too easy that I was complacent and life in a comfort zone. There wasn’t much growth and life was mundane. Everyday was the same. I did not have a large social network (not even a small social network). I remembered back in those days, I always hoped for a larger network but it never came to me. I used to drive myself to the library just to expose myself to more people but finding myself not connected to any of them. I remembered driving around alone trying to break free.
Today, I felt that life is a lot better. I have more freedom to do what I want to do. Freedom is the best thing. I’ve learnt so much in these past 5 years despite having to learn it the hard way sometimes. I just glad there are growths in terms of my career, relationship and everything else. I also am more joyful these days. Instead of living in other people’s expectations, I determine my own life. I love it. I love the feeling of sucking in all the good things and enjoying what life has to offer. I am grateful that the Universe has awarded me with a wonderful supportive man, who loves me just the way I am. I love my family and friends who always stood by me, loving me unconditionally. I appreciate the Universe for always giving me what I ask for. Thank you, Universe!
Even though I didn’t like the way I lived my life when I was in USA last time, I like the general lifestyle in USA. If I have a chance to return and stay there for a while, I am sure things will be much much better.
Yes!!! I’ll be free from bad debts after next month. Finally! ^^
After completing all my work tasks today, I retreated to my audio books late afternoon. Went to dinner alone with my dad and had fun watching him enjoying his meal. After that, I went back to my audio books until now. It’s 12:18 am.
As I lazily laid on my bed reflecting some things that happened in the past few days. I realised that I’ve been ignoring a lot of negative things as they come lately. Things that the people around me talked, feared, angered themselves and etc did not affect me. I will phase out and focus on positive aspects of the things. Right now, my main thing is to ensure that I feel good all the time. I tell myself “i want to feel good because i deserve everything that makes me feel good” every morning before I wake up and every night before I go to bed.
I started making some experiments with XCool’s nephew. Instead of using negative words, I flourish him with lots of good words. I also tell him what I want him to do instead of asking not to do something i don’t want him to do. I showered him with lots of love and teached him how to reciprocate. At the beginning, it seems that these things didn’t work. After many weeks …..yesterday and this morning, i noticed that he listened and obeyed to what I’ve told him. Let see how things go for the next few days.
I’m going to end this post with a speech by Steve Jobs. Steve Jobs is XCool’s idol. I think XCool secretly loves him more than he loves me. Anyway, it doesn’t matter. I’m cool with it. ;P I didn’t know Steve Jobs had such a rough childhood. I guess it goes to show that we should be positive and look at the positive aspects of everything. Whatever pickle you are in right now will turn out to be part of a delicious meal later. Trust that everything will be okay. In other words, have faith. This is what he said:
“Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever — because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.”
The one activity I like a lot! This is my usual eyes =.= (already very small). Now it’s just -.- .
Today had been a tiring day. It started from 9am all the way to 1:30am. Can’t take it anymore.
Good night. Thank you, Universe! Universe, please help me close the big sales deal tomorrow. I wish that the buyer will just call me up tomorrow and make me a generous offer. Thank you!
One of my friend just “Bazinga”-ed me. Argh! Looks like I’m breeding some Big Bang Theory addicts and it bites me back in the ass. Maybe I shouldn’t pass the rest of the seasons to him. My way of saving the world from a monster in the making…. hahaha
I don’t have much to talk about. I’ve been working overtime this week, juggling between my business and my new career. Phiew! 3 more days to go! This is going to be a busy but lucrative weekend. Yay!
Since last week, I started a new habit of remembering my dreams. Every night before I go to bed, I tell myself that I want to remember my dream. Every morning, when I wake up, I will try to recall my dreams. At the beginning, I had some very unwanted dreams. I was aware of how I felt in my dreams and I know that’s not what I want. There has been some improvements. The dream I had last night was a long but sweet one. I felt so happy in my dreams. It was a weird dream and didn’t make a lot of sense. But one thing’s for sure, fragments of it were very happy ones.
I wonder what I’ll dream about tonight. Can I please dream about my next two big sales and make it happen?
I’ve been out doing things for the past few days. It’s nice to retire to bed early tonight for some rest and relax. I am required to move around a lot nowadays. I like it but need to build up my stamina.
XCool and I were so busy for the last few days/weeks, we haven’t been visiting the cinema since Resident Evil. OMG. Anyway, we managed to slot in some movie time this afternoon after we’re done with our business errands. We watched Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen. Quite fake, actually. I don’t understand why heroic movies these days always feature the hero killing hundreds of people alone in one go. But the story is quite good (especially when they show Donnie Yen’s butt!!). :0)~~ Kekeke
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These days, I’ve had so much fun letting Universe take care of me. I know I’ve repeatedly mention this but things are really looking up (even for him)! Thank you, Universe! I now understand the power of :
- thinking the right thoughts.
- letting go.
- letting my emotions determine if something is what i want.
- having faith in the Universe and understanding that what I need to do is to create a vibration that aligns with what I’ve asked the Universe for.
- focusing on a person’s positive side (even if i dislike the person).
- not using negative/malicious/anger/fear emotions and words when dealing with people and things. (see how I weakened the bad words…)
i would love to tell people about Law of Attraction and hope that they can learn to practice it together with me. I’m still a learner and I’ll never stop learning. But Law of Attraction is not something you can just make someone believe. It comes to those who are ready to accept it. Nobody can use Law of Attraction for others as they can only help themselves. Some people told me that I have to accept reality. But think about it. Your current reality is a result of what you have attracted or thought about in the past. It was those thoughts that led you to the decisions you’ve made or the lifestyle you’ve chosen. If that is not bad enough, it is also partially a result of what generations of people before us have attracted or thought about. To me, accepting reality and not doing much to change the flow is a form of self-defeat and it then comes back to the big question – What is our life purposes? Why are you surrendering to your reality?
I am now accepting my reality for I know I cannot change the decisions I’ve made in the past. But I have a new purpose in life. Other than giving love, I want joy for myself. I understand that I can improve my circumstances by being happy for I have witness awesome things happening in just the last two and half weeks. With myself being more joyful, the people around me tend to shift and tune closer to my vibrations. More good people are coming into my life. I’m not joking at all. It seems that I’ve been attracting a lot of people who want to help me. I just said that to XCool last Sunday. It’s true! In fact, I’ve been in a few situations where I was rushing to leave asap but these helpful-people were forcing me to listen to them on how they can help me. It’s so amazing!
Ok. That’s all for tonight. Yawn! Good night. Thank you, Universe!
