Last night (New Year’s Eve), I did my countdown in my restaurant. Well, it wasn’t really a countdown. Okay fine. I didn’t countdown at all. But when the fireworks from a nearby shopping mall were displayed on the sky, I knew it was New Year. I did a round of greeting my customers on the dining floor and then I stood at my shop’s entrance looking at the fireworks. I spoke to Universe and told her what I wanted for this year and what I’m willing to do for her to grant my wishes. I have full faith in you, Universe!

When all is done, I suddenly felt a little lost. Last year, I did my countdown with my best friends fookies in a sleepover party at a hotel. I spoke to the Universe the exact same way and the Universe has granted almost all of my wishes. So what’s bothering me? Last year 2009, along with the good changes, there were also some unpleasant changes in my life. These are tears-making heart-breaking calamity. I certainly didn’t wish for that. But could it be that I didn’t wish for it to not happen? Then, it just hit me….. were the wishes I just made to the Universe good enough? Did I miss anything out?

Two of my fookies came to look for me and together with XCool, we went to another joint to have some beer. Gulping down the intoxicating liquid, I put all my crazy thoughts away and enjoyed the New Year’s air.

This morning, I woke up with a slight hangover. I was doing some paperwork for my shop and dated the document as “1/1/10”. The crazy thoughts popped up again. Bah! You just can’t predict everything so why worry? I’ll just do my part and grow up. Letting go and Letting God.

This will be the year of many better changes. This will be the year I stand up for myself and be independent. This will be the year I ‘buy’ back my loved ones. This will be the year I move one bigger step towards my destination. The year 2010 – the year of revolution (XCool’s favorite word). Dare to take risk!

Thank you, Universe, for giving me all the courage I need!

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