They can change 180 degrees just like that. You think you know someone for decades. But once they change, it is as though they turned into a stranger again. Totally heartbroken.

It is always the person you love the most who has the ability to hurt you the most. My tolerance has been pushed to the limit. I am on the edge of dropping everything and go. But I can’t make myself do it. What if I am right? If I am right then this person needs me. I am bounded by my responsibilities.

Then I thought about Karma. Maybe it is Karma at work. I love this person. Do I want to give the person more bad Karma? Maybe the person needs to pay back for his past Karma. Maybe the person owe it to them.

I want to let go but it can be quite a challenge. It really does hurt a lot. From now onwards, I will close my eyes on the person.

Time to move one = Time to divert my focus to something else.

I will always love you no matter how much you hurt me. Just remember…. one day, when you realise I am right, don’t forget that you still have me and I will forgive you.

Thank you, Universe for giving me so many valuable lessons. You must really love me!

It’s a few minutes to 2am. I just got back from closing my shop. If you have been following Apple news, tonight is a big night for Apple fans. Steve Jobs is going to introduce a new product or more speculated as a tablet. iSlate? iTablet?

I’ve wrote about how much of an Apple geek fan XCool is in an old post from the blog entries I accidentally deleted. Anyway, I’ve revived it and here it is -> Dating an Apple Fan. (It is just the content, didn’t bother to make it look fancy. Sorry la). XCool was raving about it and was literally jumping around in his room just now. His passion for Apple is just so inspiring and funny at the same time. I swore he kowtowed at Steve Jobs while watching a video featuring him. Now, he is OMGing every single thing that is going on in live blogs/tweet/webinar that is covering the event. Haha.

Tired. I spent the whole afternoon training my staff on preparing new dishes and drinks from a new menu which will be launch this Friday. Yay! Things are going very good in my shop. Many accomplishments worth celebrating

Back to this person I despise (from my last blog entry). After much thoughts and discussion with a few people around me, I decided to let my hurtful feelings go. LET GO AND LET GOD. Today, I saw a tweet from TonyRobbins quoting Ralph Waldo Emerson’s words “All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.” I bet there is a reason for Universe to put me through this agony. One thing’s for sure, the kind of pain I have been experiencing, I promise myself that I will never inflict it on my future generations.

I received this in an e-mail and it was from The Secret:

“Praising and blessing dissolves all negativity, so praise and bless your enemies. If you curse your enemies, the curse will come back to harm you. If you praise and bless them, you will dissolve all negativity and discord, and the love of the praising and blessings will return to you. As you praise and bless, you will feel yourself shift into a new frequency with the feedback of good feelings”

Hmmm…. easy to bless most people I despise. In fact, I’ve already blessed most of them. Only this one person I can’t. I can’t even imagine the thought of just shaking this person’s hand, let alone blessing the person. I’m going to have to confront this person very soon. Universe, help me!

So I spoke to XCool and asked him what he thinks. His reply was

tzeping: what do you reckon?
kiancheong: think of it like this d..
nobody wants nobody to have bad things happen to them
everyone is responsible for their actions
so, consider that u have always been blessing XXX
its just XXX who doesn’t know how to absorb these positive energy from you, proxied by the universe
which is why XXX is doing what XXX is doing now
again, if someone doesn’t know how to appreciate/receive good things form the universe, do u think the universe will continue to give them good positive things?
no.. the universe will move to the next person who has all the positive energy and focus on them
tzeping: who is me! yay!

Makes sense. I will try. No promises.

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Update: It’s called an iPad! I want

Have you ever hated someone so much that you wished he/she were dead (Hate is strong word but it is absolutely necessary to use in this context). Seriously. Do you have thoughts of this person getting killed in an accident?

Something has been bothering for a long time now. I really hate this evil person so much! I’ve never had such strong hatred towards anyone. This is by far the strongest ever in my life.

I’ve tried lots of ways to do Law of Attraction to kick this person out of my life. Didn’t work. I’m reaching out for help.

Any Law of Attraction guru want to enlighten me?

My bf and I attended a wedding last night. A friend of mine back in my uni days got hitched, absolutely happy for her. She looked so gorgeous. There were many familiar faces in the banquet hall and I spent some time catching up with these long lost uni friends. Wow! It had been almost nine years since I last met some of them!! Almost hard to believe but it’s true.

I lost touch with most of them after an unhappy event. Back then, we were young and naive. Our minds were so narrow, we couldn’t see the whole big picture. I had a lot of sore memories rushing back to me. The betrayals. The accusations. Some past emotions came to my mind but I was fully aware of them.

On our way home, my bf commented some negative things about my friends at our table. I was surprised to know he felt the same way. I thought I was the only paranoid one. I told him some stories about the past unhappy event and how upset i was. He convinced me that it was actually a blessing in disguise. I am stronger because of that. I just love how he always turns everything into positive.

After 9 years, these people have not changed much (despite being married, having kids, started business and etc). I know I’ve changed a lot. If I could manipulate the space/time continuum and teleport myself back to 9 years ago, I would have handle the situation differently.

Anyway, the past is the past. Let the bygones be bygones. Nevertheless, don’t forget the lesson learnt. In fact, my bf’s right. It is a blessing in disguise because I’ve learned a lesson not everyone could.

Thank you, Universe!

I like what I’ve just read. Thank you, Universe!

Also, thanks for answering last night’s call. You are awesome! i believe in you.

Thank you, Universe!

I’ve been running to and fro SSM (Companies Commission of Malaysia) for the last 4 business days. Very happy. Lets rejoice for the birth of a new business. Hip hip hurray! Hip hip hurray!

By the way, look what I’ve kidnapped today…

Squeaky!

It was more like I’ve rescued Squeaky. He needs a bath badly. He has been neglected from where he was. Haha!

Please help me. Please make the person realise what he is doing and give me back what I deserve. I’ve have been so patient.

Thank you, Universe!

All my life, I haven’t been very good at this relationship thingy. I love freedom. But I also love to be loved (who doesn’t?). I thought I should be as independent as possible, and I have no problems with that. But as it appears, not everyone thinks like me. He definitely doesn’t. It’s a wonderful and comforting surprise to find that out. I’m just too used to solving things on my own. This explains why I prefer to be single. I don’t know how to express my feelings. Maybe I’m just what my staff calls me… a freak.

* Pulling my hair and scratching my head *

When you are in a serious relationship, what is expected of you? I thought I’ve had it all figured out but nooooo. I was so wrong. Tonight, I’ve learnt some new relationship skills.

Sigh… expectations…expectations…expectations. Lately, it feels like I’m being dragged around to fulfill other people’s expectations of me. So tired…

Universe, please help me to improve my circumstances. Thank you, Universe!

晴天将会属于我的！很有耐心真在期待着 …

My favorite song at the moment is “Smile” by Uncle Kracker. I never liked Uncle Kracker in the past but this song sends out a lot of happy and positive vibes. Some things in my life is bothering me. When it gets bad, listening to this song on the radio picks me up quite instantly. I’ll be okay when I am reminded of all those who loves me. The thought of having them will make me SMILE ….

It’s just LIFE. Take it easy and cheer up, friend (You know who you are. Yes. I’m talking about you).

Was at Content Malaysia’s event (jointly organized by MobileWorld and Maxis). It was held in Centro, KL Sentral. XCool was invited to share his experience as a successful iPhone app developer. Should have brought my camera …!! Nevermind. I’ll be expecting more of bigger and better events like this for him. Law of attraction rocks.

Very proud of him….

Went for a movie after that (today is cheap movie ticket Wednesday). We watched Old Dogs. It was funny and entertaining. Oh yah…my restaurant’s lunch crowd was superb. Full house!!! I was called in to help out. A very eventful day indeed (although tiring). Happy!

Thank you, Universe!