Retired to bed very early last night but find myself waking up at my normal wake up time (830am) today. Guessed I was really exhausted. Everything is okay now. The last few days had been challenging and somehow I managed to swim through them. Emotionally tired. While I was totally uninterested in most other things, I find my fiance and my friends pushing me constantly to work harder. They may not know what I’m going through but I feel very grateful to have all of them in my life for they keep me going.
This morning, I feel better and I know things will improve more and more. I’m ready to continue from where I have left off. I find myself having to make cold calls again. The last time I had to do this was back in 2008 when I worked for FAA during a short period of time. Well, it wasn’t really a cold call but more like a follow up call at that time. Nevertheless, I’m motivated and excited.
I’ve received a few calls (3 calls in exact) from Monday and yesterday. All 3 of the calls is bringing me great news. My luck is changing. Yay!
Dear Universe, thanks for the lessons. I ask for your guidance in everything that I set my mind on doing. I want to improve my interpersonal skills as I understand that it is important in this business. Please give me the strength to be a better person in all areas.
I haven’t been updating my blog and I felt guilty of not doing so. There are some pretty interesting and complicated things happening right now. I thought it was challenging enough in the last few weeks. However, this week’s event made the things that happened last few weeks seems insignificant (and it’s only Thursday!!).
Despite all the disturbing thoughts planted in my mind, I’m learning to let things go just like before. This has been a very challenging year thus far, mixed with very happy and less happy events. Somehow, I think I’ve developed this ability to suppress my true emotions while replacing it with jollier ones (some can say superficial). I’ve been so good at it I think even my fiance can’t tell.
No matter what… I need to press on and be patient. I have faith that things will improve after this weekend. It just gotta. Universe, please help me! Thank you!
The past few days had been pretty hectic for me. I seem to have loads of errands to run and many phone calls coming in. I’m not complaining. I like all this. Hope to get more phone calls for each phone call brings me one step closer to making more people happy.
Another interesting thing was that a few of my friends suddenly caught up with me. Two of them (a chap and lady both on different occasions) told me that their career directions have slowed down and they are looking for new opportunities. Both asked if I would like to work together to come up with something. I do not oppose the idea despite my busy schedule. However, the challenge now is to come up with ideas first. What is the “something” for us to work together?
While we are looking for ideas, I have a few friends who also caught up with me to announce that they are starting some big businesses. I’m so happy for them. One in particular really caught me off guard. I never thought he would come up with something like this. Bravo! Then another lady friend of mine also started her own business. I never thought she would take the plunge because she was quite a risk averse person. But she did and I am proud of her.
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Questions on my mind constantly. What is the purpose of my life? What am I here for? Am I fulfilling my purpose everyday? Mind boggling.
The new part time career is going on well. Although, I am facing some challenges right now, I am absolutely confident that the Universe is there for me. She has been nice to me for the last few days. Thank you, Universe! Also, thank you to my friends who’ve helped me get started and gave me some opportunities. I’m loving it so far. Could this be the passion I’ve been looking for? Unlike other money making ventures, I haven’t been concentrating on the money/reward portion for this new career at all. In fact, I’ve been putting more energy and focus into satisfying my customers. I feel like I’m contributing to the society by making my customers’ lives happier. I love it! I’m about to close my first deal. It will be a good start. I’m patiently waiting to close another deal, which is a big big one. ^^
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This morning, I was asked to do something for someone I loathe. This is something I can’t refuse. So there I was being quiet the whole time while fulfilling my obligations. Immediately after it’s done, I called XCool to bitch about it and felt better. As soon as I’ve hung up the phone, I tried to look at the positive side of this situation. This is a habit I’ve developed and I tend to practise a lot lately. When I revisited my feelings, my actions, the person’s actions and the person’s spiteful behavior, I actually felt sorry for the person. There I was giving the person a chance to change my mind about the person. Not only that the person didn’t bother, the person behaved very pettily. I can accept this type of behavior from a primary/secondary school kid… or even a college kid. But this person is 5 decades old! I felt sorry for the person for being so inexperienced and shallow even at this age.
I decided to let my feelings go. I have too many wonderful things waiting for me to experience and build. Why would I want to let the person spoil my mood. Feelings can influence a person’s mind. Good things are flowing my way and I ain’t going to let this stop the stream. There are no rooms for negative thoughts in my brain.
Have you ever had one of those days when good news or events pouring from all directions continuously? Today is one of those days and I’m tired but happy.
Early in the morning, I drove all the way to Government Complex in KL. Words cannot expressed how happy I was when I found out that my business grant has been approved!!! It’s like money falling down from the sky. When I applied for this grant, many people gave me a lot of negative remarks. “It’s not going to be easy”, “Don’t waste your time”. “You think you can get free money?”. I didn’t listen to them and go ahead anyway. Yes, it took a year plus to get it approved but hey, who’s complaining? It’s really free money! Happy! This reminds me of what I’ve learnt in Money Mastery… a lot of things in this world are free. You just need to believe and don’t be afraid to ask.
Next, I got one call that has good news. At that point, I thought my day was super awesome already.
Come evening, I called up a friend for dinner. While driving to meet her, I received another call bringing a good opportunity. Whoa! This is really my lucky day.
Later at night, I received another call. This is was from my sister. She gave me another good news.
Now you see what a good day this is. Haha. I have a feeling that the whole week will be just as awesome. I love my life. My Facebook friend is right. It is a choice! Thank you, Universe!
Things are getting a bit more complicated lately. My mind has been been pretty occupied with endless stream of thoughts. I’ve been thinking of ways to solve a new career challeng. Also, I’m looking for ways to expand a mini-business I’ve been working on. Then, there’s the F&B business needing my attention every now and then. I’m also restructuring my property investment strategy. Last but not least, there is still a wedding to think about… with the ever-growing guest list. Whenever something pops up, I’ll do it right away otherwise it might get lost in my memory.
I’ve been receiving a lot of advices such as “go with the flow and things will be okay”. Yeah. Well. I guess it’s true. Things always find its own way to okay valley. Trust in the Universe. Have some faith. Be patient.
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Watched The Last Airbender today. It could have been better if they get better cast crews. It’s a Nickelodeon (a.k.a. meant-for-younger-audience) production. What do you expect?
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Meeting an ex secondary school mate tomorrow to check out his wedding photography portfolio and packages. He’s quite successful and famous now. Let’s see if we could engage him…
One year has passed since the day I told him I’ll ‘try’. At that time, I wasn’t really ready to dive into another relationship and I didn’t think I could. Taking the risk was the best decision I’ve ever made. It seems like we’ve been together for a long time but it has only been a year. Quite amazing if you’d ask me.
There are many uncertainties in life. In fact, chances of getting a 100% sure thing in life is almost next to nil. I’ve broke some hearts and got my own heart broken before. I know change is the only certain thing in life. No further doubts that things will change and our relationship will continue to change every single day. Nevertheless, I am quite certain that we’ll make it through.
Here’s a song dedicated to you, darling. You really got a way with me and I can’t wait to move on to the next chapter of our lives together.
(Don’t you just love Shania Twain? I do! I do! She’s sooooo gorgeous and talented. I’ve always like her songs.)
You know, I’ve asked him so many times why does he love me but he hasn’t given me an answer that is ermm.. acceptable or at least satisfactory. Most of the time he just blabbers something to bypass the awkward moment. Well…?
Anyhoo, anyhow, anyway, Happy 1 Year Anniversary! Muaksss! Love you more and more everyday.
Hmm… I’m finding it hard to blog these days. I guess maybe I ran out of things to say. Maybe it’s just a temporary shortage of inspiration to write. Perhaps the blogging part of me is on self-declared hiatus. Whatever it is… I guess I could use a little help here and open myself to suggestions. What do you guys wanna hear from me? ^^
I’ve been reading quite a few self help (ie motivational) books lately in replace of the time spent blogging. The one I’m currently reading is Thought Vibration by William W. Atkinson. I find it quite interesting but with a concept that is a little hard to grasp. It explains a lot about Law of Attraction and how the vibration of good thoughts can change one’s live. Will share with you some interesting facts next time. Very sleepy now…..
Nevertheless, let me leave this post with an excerpt I’ve gotten from another book I’ve done reading:
“We must seek to become imbued with the desire to advance. Everything will then work toward our aid. Obstacles will strengthen our resolve to win. Discouragement from others will only serve to strengthen and to arouse us to a stronger activity. We will see more clearly and understand more fully that every difficulty is an opportunity to advance, every stumbling block is a stepping stone to success.”
Happy! This reminds me of what I’ve learnt in Money Mastery… a lot of things in this world are free. You just need to believe and don’t be afraid to ask.